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fray-over my head
why do I all of a sudden feel like I should never be in a relationship ever again in my entire life? I feel like I'm so much less into this whole relationship thing than him, and its really weird. I think of how I probably should be acting with him and how I do act, and I feel like its not for me.


I'm such a prude, too. the last thing I want to do is get more serious right now, and apparently I'm the only one. I'm still in the process of figuring out where I stand as of right now. I feel like we're on completely different pages.

its weird. some days, I couldn't be happier than where I'm at. other days, I just wish I was single again and didn't have the obligation. I like him, but I feel like I don't like him enough. I don't know what to do! the best part is that I can't even confide in my best friends because I'm afraid word will get back to him somehow. I need someone to talk to. I need my life back where it was before.

I'm in too deep, there's too much on my plate. I can't keep up with friends, boyfriend, school, clubs, sports, family, etc. its just too much for me to take.

and, its days like these that I wonder what I got myself into. other days, I'm the happiest girl ever.
it doesn't make sense to me. maybe its because I have absolutely no experience. maybe I shouldn't even be questioning anything right now, I feel like I have no authority to question it.

why can't life go back to when boys had cooties? it was much easier to live then.

other than all of this going on in my life, its officially ONE MONTH until the fray concert!!!! =D

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whatshernamexo2 wrote:
Jul. 26th, 2007 06:55 am (UTC)
you can confide in me, love

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